It’s funny that we always seem to align resolutions with the start of a new year. I can remember being very confused as a child when my mother tried to explain to me that school starts in September, but the New Year starts in January. It felt a bit like we were getting the short end of the stick.
I’ve been thinking a lot about personal goals, and ideally where I’d like to see myself in the next year so. With the start of the new school year I figured the timing was perfect for me to make some of those goals a reality. It took me running into a former flame, and some undue drama to help me realize that I was much more unabashedly myself at 17 than I have been anytime lately. Whether you’re heading back to school or you are just feeling stuck, it’s important to create goals so that you can continue your own personal growth.For me, I’d like to put myself out there more. It’s hard to maintain a blog when you’d still like to keep a sense of anonymity. I’ve never been the type of person who was drawn to the spotlight, but I appreciate all the opportunities that my blog brings me, and I love being able to write about what interests me most. If you’ve ever lived with any sort of anxiety, please remember that you are worth so much no matter what anyone else says
Without going into too much, I have lived with the addiction of another person essentially my whole life. I was always nervous that this would come out to impact me in such a negative way that I pushed all those feelings so deep. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out that by doing that I was hurting myself even more. I’m finally taking the steps to deal with this, and working hard but nothing happens overnight.Just remember, in the words of Swedish pop group Ace of Base, “No one’s gonna drag you up to get into the light where you belong.” Though you may not want to go back to school, be your best self this year babe. You need to carve your own path, so get excited about something and put your whole self into it. You never know what might happen.
I’d just like to say that I am especially grateful to all my friends, family and readers who have forever supported me, especially my girls. You created a sense of community where you have always allowed me to be myself, and never shamed me for being different. Expect to see some changes around here the next couple months, but with the same old Beauty & the Blog flair.